A counselor once said to me,” The life you most want will be:
1. Different than you expected…
2. Harder than you expected….
3. Better than you expected.”
Two weeks into this coaching paradigm and I agree with her.
These two weeks have begun with a kind of wilderness experience….a forced aloneness; quiet; slow illumination of dark spaces.
I want more than to simply make better decisions. I want more than to simply respond better in difficult circumstances. I want more than to simply replace bad habits with good ones.
I want to live one very good, true life….not a perfect one; but not an inauthentic one; not a false one. A free one. A true one.
And I need light to do so.
I need to see what the light illuminates and deal with the stuff hidden in corners and closets.
I want to forgive and be forgiven.
I want to trust and be trusted.
I want to offer grace and truth without compromising either.
My counselor was right.
This living true thing is hard work. As long as I was the only one aware of the mess in my own corners and closet and I held the only key to those spaces, I could manuever around pretty well.
Manuevering and managing just isn’t good enough anymore.
I believe the light bulbs have always been there. They just needed the switches to be flipped.
Takes some getting used to, though….all this light.
But, isn’t it beautiful?
