So, I wrote this post a few weeks ago and have – with some embarrassment – just realized I never posted it. Not to worry…the words still ring true….except that the North Star is alive and well, shining ever so brightly…more later….
With the new year arriving midst blustery winds and blowing snows, the winter sky has offered staggering views of the night skies. Cold, stark, mysterious, stunning. And just at a time when I presumed that new stories would simply write themselves upon my heart and calendar, even with winter clarity I seem to have lost sight of my own North Star.
So, I went looking for it….
I was reminded of one of my favorite benchmark words for new beginnings found in
Isaiah 43:18-19 ….
“Do not remember the former things;
or consider things of old.
I am about to do a new thing;
now it springs forth’
do you not preceive it?’
I love these words because I seem to carry around alot of “former things” which get in the way of my seeing “the new thing” springing up…kinda like losing my North Star. Without my North Star I seem to wander aimlessly about my space; moving more circular than forward, more awkward than sound, more lost than found. I think I believed that my North Star – my guiding light – would appear in my circumstances or in my check book or by email with words and prizes to re-energize my movement and chart my new course.
But, none of those things happened.
Instead, something rumbled and tumbled inside of me having little to do with the squares on my calendar.
It is my insides that long for a new beginning. The former things that muddy my vision are not the scribbles on my new datebook. They are the walls and strongholds entrapping my heart.
I have some hard work to do. Beautiful though it may be the North Star is simply that, my guide, my point of reference. I am the seeker. I choose the journey.
I’ve known this for a long time. I just wanted all the other stuff to do the really hard work and allow me to slide through…to the other side of New.
I don’t want to slide anymore.
The North Star is too magnificent, too powerful, too much to ever miss again…
